A written history of Bobby Jameson and his search through the past. Working my way back through the jungle of drug addiction and booze. My family life as a kid was the breeding ground for addicts. No self worth, no help, and one chance to get out alive. Music was the horse I rode out on...and the music business was the horse I rode into hell. Pronounced dead twice from drug over doses, I lived to tell how the pursuit of fame is as deadly as any narcotic I have ever used.
Thursday, September 8, 2011
(part 256) I WILL FIGHT YOU TILL THE DAY I DIE
There are those who will wonder why I give attention to people like Tom Weatherwood. It is simply this. People like Tom live in a world where they have learned to justify their version of acceptability through a twisted belief in Christian Fundamentalism, something this entire country is beginning to be forced into coping with. Tom lives no more than a few miles from me, and is a carbon copy of the kind of crap-head I have had to deal with since the first day I arrived in San Luis Obispo County in 1985.
This is not about me whining or my music being good or bad, this is about people like Tom, who think they are called by God to clean house. The United States Of America is faced with exactly the same twisted mentality exhibited by this moron in his email to me from out of the blue. It occurred to me that the depth of his distaste is centered on the fact that, in his mind, I am plainly not the kind of person he wants in his area, particularly if you draw public attention the way I do.
I can accept that I am not Jesus Christ or Bob Dylan, but it is telling that he refers to me in that way. His belief about what he thinks I think about myself reeks of something conjured up by so-called church elders from hell. His self-serving "holier than thou" take on me is his own creation adopted after, in his own words, a year of thinking, reading, listening, and discussing me with others. Why anyone would bother to invest so much time in someone they despise is mental illness at it's finest.
Tom is a successful central coast resident, and he exemplifies, unfortunately, what this area is like. He is part of the local "good ol boy" establishment and resents, in the deepest way possible, the presence of one Bobby Jameson, or anyone like me, scumming up his picture perfect God-like vision of San luis Obispo County, a place, which at times, acts like the deep south in the 50's and 60's. This area is crawling with Christian fundamentalists, pawning themselves off as solid citizens determined to cleanse and clarify life on the central coast and the "Garden Of Eden."
Tom Leatherwood and all those like him are on a crusade to determine what's right for everyone. They are the Rick Perry, Sarah Palin, Glen Beck pricks of the central coast. They are self-ordained assholes with a Bible in one hand and a gun in the other. They are called by their so-called ministries to do God's work wherever and whenever they decide it is appropriate. It would appear that currently I am on their hit list, but this is not the first time for me.
You, the reader, can decide for yourself whether what I say here is real or fanciful thinking, but I in my fortress of bad behavior and endless complaining already know the answer...which is, "I will fight you till the day I die!"
I have loosened up comments so more can get their opinion in....even if it is to say how much you hate me and my pathetic mega whining.....
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
IF JESUS IS YOUR SAVIOR
MY NAME IS
JESUS DYLAN
AND BOY I
MAKE YOU MAD
AND ALL THIS TIME
I THOUGHT
YOU WERE
THE FRIEND
I NEVER HAD
YOU SAY YOU KEEP
YOUR COUNCIL
AND ARE CHRISTIAN
IN YOUR MIND
BUT YOU KEEP
SPYIN ON ME AND
WASTIN ALL
YOUR TIME
I THINK YOU ARE
A STALKER
I THINK YOU
ARE CONFUSED
MY NAME IS REALLY
BOB CHRIST
AND MAN
AM I AMUSED
IF JESUS IS
YOUR SAVIOR
AND YOUR LIFE IS
WORKING WELL
THEN WHY ARE YOU
DOWN HERE WITH ME
BECAUSE I LIVE
IN HELL
Bobby Jameson September 7, 2011
More Emails From Tom Leatherwood On Facebook Tonight
PauLa Servetti
he wrote: Tom Leatherwood
why do you buy into this morons BS? He's a loser of the first degree. His own worst enemy. And a no talent loser whose wasted his life mooning about his bad luck. His music sucks. Always did.
You seem like a woman with some class.....this guy is the king of the narcissist. Total loser. Using FB to bemoan the largest pity party imaginable.....im sick of hearing it.
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Vicky PauLa and Andrew like this.
Bobby Jameson This fuckin guy is gone over the line.......
2 hours ago · Like · 2 people
Vicky Damn!!! He has...he's gone waaaaaaaaaaaaay over the line!! What an imbecile he is!!
2 hours ago · Unlike · 1 person
Bobby Jameson Yeah Vicky...this is demented bullcrap....
2 hours ago · Like · 1 person
Vicky Exactly!!
2 hours ago · Unlike · 1 person
David Well, I'm totally confused.
2 hours ago · Unlike · 2 people
Andrew demented bs from demented person.
2 hours ago · Unlike · 3 people
Bobby Jameson Emailing me with this crap is one thing, but emailing Paula is going too far.....
2 hours ago · Like · 3 people
Richard I kinda feel sorry for Tom Peckerwood. He's obviously a miserable and angry nut job.
2 hours ago · Like · 1 person
Wil He has a very serious complex about you, Bobby. Did you beat him up in grade school and take his lunch?
2 hours ago · Like · 4 people
Chris I will run a background on him, where is he located?
2 hours ago · Unlike · 1 person
Bobby Jameson He's on fb and he is not far from me in Paso Robles, CA.....about 25 minutes from here.....sounds like he's trippin Chris......
2 hours ago · Like · 1 person
Nick Think it's more about him wanting Paula than hating Bobby...
2 hours ago · Like
Chris I will check back, my cuz told me to watch jimmy kimmel tonight, yeah he needs to be checked out, i will let you know if he has a record
2 hours ago · Unlike · 1 person
Bobby Jameson OK...thanks Chris....
2 hours ago · Like · 1 person
David Book him Danno.
2 hours ago · Unlike · 3 people
Bobby Jameson IF I could get a hold of him I'd book em in the mouth!
2 hours ago · Like
David Best to let Chris and I take you out to dinner Bobby.
Alibi's you know.
2 hours ago · Unlike · 3 people
Bobby Jameson sounds casual........Ha!
2 hours ago · Like
David Nope. Formal. So put on some socks. LOL
2 hours ago · Unlike · 1 person
DeeDee Honey, you wouldn't beat up a mentally challenged person, would you? We love you, Bobby. It's sticks and stones, buddy.
2 hours ago · Unlike · 1 person
Bobby Jameson Maybe...maybe he's loaded.....and he lives about 20 minutes from me.....and he's not mentally challenged...he's just full of shit.....
2 hours ago · Like · 2 people
Bobby Jameson But I get your point DeeDee...thanks.......
2 hours ago · Like · 3 people
DeeDee Tom is showing you who the loser really is, and you didn't even have to say anything. I love it when people prove their stupidity.
2 hours ago · Unlike · 3 people
Bobby Jameson Another very good point........OK I'll just slap him a little.....
2 hours ago · Like · 1 person
David Is that his real name, or just a FB name?
2 hours ago · Unlike · 1 person
Bobby Jameson His real name is Tom Leatherwood....he is a real person who started this shit earlier in the day.....I have asked people who know him and me to intervene.....we'll see....
2 hours ago · Like
Bobby Jameson I don't even know the guy!
2 hours ago · Like · 3 people
PauLa Servetti me neither
2 hours ago · Unlike · 2 people
DeeDee Bobby, he sounds to me like he's jealous and not getting enough attention.
2 hours ago · Unlike · 3 people
Bobby Jameson Right!
2 hours ago · Like · 1 person
DeeDee Let's see, there is a word for that...oh yeah, pathetic.
2 hours ago · Unlike · 2 people
Bobby Jameson That's the word DeeDee............
about an hour ago · Like · 1 person
Barbara No one knows this Tom guy...everyone knows you Bobby!!! 'Nuff said!
about an hour ago · Unlike · 3 people
Bobby Jameson Thanks Barbara!
about an hour ago · Like · 2 people
Bobby Jameson I'm easing back into a humorous state of mind.........
about an hour ago · Like · 3 people
DeeDee I think we just met the "Lonesome Loser", buddy;-)
about an hour ago · Unlike · 3 people
Barbara LOL! Good one DD!
about an hour ago · Unlike · 2 people
Phil "And a no talent loser whose wasted his life mooning about his bad luck" Are you mooning again? seems the only ass is this dude, he is pissed cause he plays bass in the church choir!
51 minutes ago · Unlike · 1 person
he wrote: Tom Leatherwood
why do you buy into this morons BS? He's a loser of the first degree. His own worst enemy. And a no talent loser whose wasted his life mooning about his bad luck. His music sucks. Always did.
You seem like a woman with some class.....this guy is the king of the narcissist. Total loser. Using FB to bemoan the largest pity party imaginable.....im sick of hearing it.
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Vicky PauLa and Andrew like this.
Bobby Jameson This fuckin guy is gone over the line.......
2 hours ago · Like · 2 people
Vicky Damn!!! He has...he's gone waaaaaaaaaaaaay over the line!! What an imbecile he is!!
2 hours ago · Unlike · 1 person
Bobby Jameson Yeah Vicky...this is demented bullcrap....
2 hours ago · Like · 1 person
Vicky Exactly!!
2 hours ago · Unlike · 1 person
David Well, I'm totally confused.
2 hours ago · Unlike · 2 people
Andrew demented bs from demented person.
2 hours ago · Unlike · 3 people
Bobby Jameson Emailing me with this crap is one thing, but emailing Paula is going too far.....
2 hours ago · Like · 3 people
Richard I kinda feel sorry for Tom Peckerwood. He's obviously a miserable and angry nut job.
2 hours ago · Like · 1 person
Wil He has a very serious complex about you, Bobby. Did you beat him up in grade school and take his lunch?
2 hours ago · Like · 4 people
Chris I will run a background on him, where is he located?
2 hours ago · Unlike · 1 person
Bobby Jameson He's on fb and he is not far from me in Paso Robles, CA.....about 25 minutes from here.....sounds like he's trippin Chris......
2 hours ago · Like · 1 person
Nick Think it's more about him wanting Paula than hating Bobby...
2 hours ago · Like
Chris I will check back, my cuz told me to watch jimmy kimmel tonight, yeah he needs to be checked out, i will let you know if he has a record
2 hours ago · Unlike · 1 person
Bobby Jameson OK...thanks Chris....
2 hours ago · Like · 1 person
David Book him Danno.
2 hours ago · Unlike · 3 people
Bobby Jameson IF I could get a hold of him I'd book em in the mouth!
2 hours ago · Like
David Best to let Chris and I take you out to dinner Bobby.
Alibi's you know.
2 hours ago · Unlike · 3 people
Bobby Jameson sounds casual........Ha!
2 hours ago · Like
David Nope. Formal. So put on some socks. LOL
2 hours ago · Unlike · 1 person
DeeDee Honey, you wouldn't beat up a mentally challenged person, would you? We love you, Bobby. It's sticks and stones, buddy.
2 hours ago · Unlike · 1 person
Bobby Jameson Maybe...maybe he's loaded.....and he lives about 20 minutes from me.....and he's not mentally challenged...he's just full of shit.....
2 hours ago · Like · 2 people
Bobby Jameson But I get your point DeeDee...thanks.......
2 hours ago · Like · 3 people
DeeDee Tom is showing you who the loser really is, and you didn't even have to say anything. I love it when people prove their stupidity.
2 hours ago · Unlike · 3 people
Bobby Jameson Another very good point........OK I'll just slap him a little.....
2 hours ago · Like · 1 person
David Is that his real name, or just a FB name?
2 hours ago · Unlike · 1 person
Bobby Jameson His real name is Tom Leatherwood....he is a real person who started this shit earlier in the day.....I have asked people who know him and me to intervene.....we'll see....
2 hours ago · Like
Bobby Jameson I don't even know the guy!
2 hours ago · Like · 3 people
PauLa Servetti me neither
2 hours ago · Unlike · 2 people
DeeDee Bobby, he sounds to me like he's jealous and not getting enough attention.
2 hours ago · Unlike · 3 people
Bobby Jameson Right!
2 hours ago · Like · 1 person
DeeDee Let's see, there is a word for that...oh yeah, pathetic.
2 hours ago · Unlike · 2 people
Bobby Jameson That's the word DeeDee............
about an hour ago · Like · 1 person
Barbara No one knows this Tom guy...everyone knows you Bobby!!! 'Nuff said!
about an hour ago · Unlike · 3 people
Bobby Jameson Thanks Barbara!
about an hour ago · Like · 2 people
Bobby Jameson I'm easing back into a humorous state of mind.........
about an hour ago · Like · 3 people
DeeDee I think we just met the "Lonesome Loser", buddy;-)
about an hour ago · Unlike · 3 people
Barbara LOL! Good one DD!
about an hour ago · Unlike · 2 people
Phil "And a no talent loser whose wasted his life mooning about his bad luck" Are you mooning again? seems the only ass is this dude, he is pissed cause he plays bass in the church choir!
51 minutes ago · Unlike · 1 person
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
ANOTHER WONDERFUL COMMENT BY A FAN ON FACEBOOK
14 hours agoTom Leatherwood
Being on the internet is a waste of time for you. MUch less facebook. Ive seen some sniveling whining morons in my life but you take the cake. Ive listened to your whining, read your internet crap and all i have to say is that you get narcissist of the world award. Youve spent your life whining about all the fame and money your "talent" couldnt provide and im sick of it. Face reality. You didnt have it. You just didnt HAVE it. Get it through your head. THATS WHY IT DIDN'T HAPPEN FOR YOU. NO ONE TOOK YOUR IDEAS AND MADE THEM PAY OFF! Anymore then you could. Facebook isnt a place for whining and boo hooing about all the fame you couldnt create, that you didnt deserve. Get a life. While you can. IF you can. Its doubtful.
Stop the pity party. It sickening to listen to. Ive been watching and listening to your crap the last year and tried to be christian in my thoughts. Ive kept my council and talked to people that profess to know you and have finally hit the wall. Get OVER yourself.
Your NOT Jesus Christ, and your NOT Bob Dylan and nobody gives a shiit. And believe it or not, this advice comes to you in all sincerity.
Your a human being and your Gods child. Start acting like it.
Good luck.
44 minutes agoBobby Jameson
Well you punk ass mother fucker....anytime shit head...any fucking time you want......Bobby
30 minutes agoTom Leatherwood
Spoken like a true phsycopath. And then what? Your going to beat me up? For telling you what your friends won't? And what will that change? It's about GROWING UP "Bobby". "punk ass mo fo"? Shithead? I havent heard those since about 1960? What you got from me was good advice, what you do with it is your business. Adios
29 minutes agoBobby Jameson
You are an arrogant fake Christian Tom...and yes I will kick the living shit out of you......I'm right down the hill asshole in SLO....
25 minutes agoTom Leatherwood
No, your not going to do anything. Get a handle on your anger...then get a grip on yourself...You don't know a thing about me. This is about you, not me pal. Your your own worst enemy...
23 minutes agoBobby Jameson
It's about you Tom.....but you are unaware of it....you don't know me either.....You think because you blather about christianity that you have some special right and duty to look down on me in judgement........
You ought to go to my profile on fb...because I have made you a star........
Tom Leatherwood
Not at all, I just got sick of having to see all of your self pity played out on Facebook.Thats not what its for. And Bobby? Nobody cares what you have on your profile ok? ok.
Being on the internet is a waste of time for you. MUch less facebook. Ive seen some sniveling whining morons in my life but you take the cake. Ive listened to your whining, read your internet crap and all i have to say is that you get narcissist of the world award. Youve spent your life whining about all the fame and money your "talent" couldnt provide and im sick of it. Face reality. You didnt have it. You just didnt HAVE it. Get it through your head. THATS WHY IT DIDN'T HAPPEN FOR YOU. NO ONE TOOK YOUR IDEAS AND MADE THEM PAY OFF! Anymore then you could. Facebook isnt a place for whining and boo hooing about all the fame you couldnt create, that you didnt deserve. Get a life. While you can. IF you can. Its doubtful.
Stop the pity party. It sickening to listen to. Ive been watching and listening to your crap the last year and tried to be christian in my thoughts. Ive kept my council and talked to people that profess to know you and have finally hit the wall. Get OVER yourself.
Your NOT Jesus Christ, and your NOT Bob Dylan and nobody gives a shiit. And believe it or not, this advice comes to you in all sincerity.
Your a human being and your Gods child. Start acting like it.
Good luck.
44 minutes agoBobby Jameson
Well you punk ass mother fucker....anytime shit head...any fucking time you want......Bobby
30 minutes agoTom Leatherwood
Spoken like a true phsycopath. And then what? Your going to beat me up? For telling you what your friends won't? And what will that change? It's about GROWING UP "Bobby". "punk ass mo fo"? Shithead? I havent heard those since about 1960? What you got from me was good advice, what you do with it is your business. Adios
29 minutes agoBobby Jameson
You are an arrogant fake Christian Tom...and yes I will kick the living shit out of you......I'm right down the hill asshole in SLO....
25 minutes agoTom Leatherwood
No, your not going to do anything. Get a handle on your anger...then get a grip on yourself...You don't know a thing about me. This is about you, not me pal. Your your own worst enemy...
23 minutes agoBobby Jameson
It's about you Tom.....but you are unaware of it....you don't know me either.....You think because you blather about christianity that you have some special right and duty to look down on me in judgement........
You ought to go to my profile on fb...because I have made you a star........
Tom Leatherwood
Not at all, I just got sick of having to see all of your self pity played out on Facebook.Thats not what its for. And Bobby? Nobody cares what you have on your profile ok? ok.
Friday, September 2, 2011
WINDS OF TIME
Artist: Robert Watson
"Pasoga Roma"
TIME AND SPACE
CORDONED OFF
LIKE A
PRISON CAMP
SURVIVORS STAND
HOLLOW FACED
AND RIGID
PRAYING FOR
AN END
BUT FEAR
THEIR PRAYERS
FALL ON
DEAF EARS
AND COLD HEARTS...
THERE IS NO
RIGHT TO DIE
NO RIGHT
TO LIVE
EXCEPT WITHIN
THE CONFINES
OF THE CAMP
WHERE MISERY
DICTATES
EACH DAY
AND LONELY NIGHT...
TIME AND SPACE
WHERE SKELETONS
OF DREAMS
ARE ALL
THAT REMAIN
OF YOUTH
NOW LEFT
TO THE WINDS
OF TIME...
Bobby Jameson Sep 2 2011
"Pasoga Roma"
TIME AND SPACE
CORDONED OFF
LIKE A
PRISON CAMP
SURVIVORS STAND
HOLLOW FACED
AND RIGID
PRAYING FOR
AN END
BUT FEAR
THEIR PRAYERS
FALL ON
DEAF EARS
AND COLD HEARTS...
THERE IS NO
RIGHT TO DIE
NO RIGHT
TO LIVE
EXCEPT WITHIN
THE CONFINES
OF THE CAMP
WHERE MISERY
DICTATES
EACH DAY
AND LONELY NIGHT...
TIME AND SPACE
WHERE SKELETONS
OF DREAMS
ARE ALL
THAT REMAIN
OF YOUTH
NOW LEFT
TO THE WINDS
OF TIME...
Bobby Jameson Sep 2 2011
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
(part 255) THE WAY YOU BROKE MY HEART
I am not as lost as I am fed up and frustrated by my own life and putting it out in public like a rotting piece of meat swarmed over by flies. As I listen to Danny Whitten's "I Don't Want To Talk About It" I understand the dilemma of trying to live with an utterly broken heart. There is no way to communicate the basis of my remark to anyone who has not truly been impaled on that particular nail. Likewise, without the ability to communicate to others one remains shattered by all that shattered them to begin with.
There is no way to convey a broken heart other than to do what the broken-hearted do, which has always been unacceptable to most of the rest of the world. One is either soundly condemned for it, or given a pep-talk from hell masquerading as good-intentioned advice. I reject both versions completely.
What begins to become vividly apparent, after years of neglect, is that what the problem was in the past now stubbornly remains the problem today, and appears destined to be the same tomorrow. Even in making this remark here and now I can feel the reaction to it from the masses who have been brain-washed into believing that they must counter this kind of thinking at all costs.
It is the wholesale inability and downright refusal to admit to, and/or cope with, the lethality of a truly broken-hearted person, that ultimately leaves those suffering abandoned by the many, as a remedy-or-else solution. In 1972 I made a decision, on two separate occasions, to commit suicide after nine years of repeated dead-ends in the music business, decisions I still wish had been successful. The fact that this is really how I feel has and will be met with numerous forms of criticism, contempt, anger, and possible worry.
It is this reaction by people, to those who suffer, that ultimately drives the sufferer away to sort out their options alone. Those people, who I have the deepest possible contempt for, reside in the luxury of their judgement offering up suggestions to a burning man such as, "You ougtta throw some water on that," and then claiming that they have helped.
In my life I have witnessed the repeated small-talk antidote for everything, no matter how lethal or destructive it may be, or have been, to an individual or their family. When my father committed suicide in 1970, I received help in the form of, "Don't let it get you down," and nothing else. Currently in my quest to keep breathing I receive basically the same identical advice as I did then. For decades I have crawled along the curb, hovering slightly above total annihilation, only to look up occasionally at those frowning at my performance.
It is brought home in recent days by another offer to release some of my songs on a label without any money, except somewhere in the future, a future which in my experience has never come and never will. Another voice saying, "You can trust me!" I would think that anyone who knew anything about my past would be embarrassed to make such an offer at this point, but then I surmise that this person either doesn't know, or does, and believes that I should trust them anyway.
To me it's another low-ball moment. Another day to say, "No!" Another time to turn my back and shake my head and wonder why anyone thinks that I need to do this shit some more? Every problem I have is directly linked to trusting people in the music business, with disastrous results. I don't need, or care about, another record of my work being released with nothing in it for me except it being the latest version.
If I live long enough, maybe someday someone will actually offer me something to participate in the release of some of my work, but in all honesty I am not holding my breath. But in the meantime all I can do is to write about, "The way you broke my heart."
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